Thoughts!

I'm so nervous because I'm going to be starting school in the next two weeks, at Central Adult School for the program "Certified Nurse Assistant". The anticipation of going to school and being a mother to daughter Autumn is going to be a challenge but very rewarding.

I want to work with Children in  health care and that is a big dream of mine.  The challenge I will be taking as wanting to transition myself from being a stay- at- home  mom to a work mom is going to be scary in the future. Especially me being a single-mom and that is a challenge in itself. I want to get a divorce and i need to start trying to file sometime in the near future so I'm currently separated.

Autumn turned 3 over the weekend and it was really beautiful she got to go to pismo beach.  We ate cupcakes and had crunch bars and she got to open her presents.

Moments that are the most precious!

I'm up in the wee hours thinking about cleaning up my Ethereal apartment that i share with daughter Autumn. I know this month i got to get really organized. Like throw away a lot of things and get rid of a lot of junk.  I've notice that i have an obsession with candles but do not like burning them it's like I'm burning a piece of me. I do burn candles when i feel the urge to write like I'm doing now. 

I think in the future I want to get into Candle-making and doll-making with daughter Autumn. I love to create with her especially when she paints i love seeing her child like Ethereal lyrical abstraction that explode on her artist construction paper. She is 2 in half and in a couple of days she will be turning one my most favorite favorite numbers the number i so reluctantly born which is the third "3" three to me is the most mystical number. This a throwback picture of Autumn at 4 months old.

3 & 7 is my numbers.

Autumn's father is born on the 7th of the month so he now loves the numbers 3 & 7  and these number's also belong to Autumn in Numerology so she represents the number 3 & 7 and 12. I also love the number 12 because of her it's such a powerful number also.


I now can't wait to buy my Nikon d5100.

I wanted to do mixed- media art but i do feel more suited to do it in the month of March i feel march is more dreamy and rainy and i want to work when it rains more outside to create painting's.
I think that is why I can't wait to move to Portland, Oregon.
I've been wanting to move there since late 2010 that city is calling to me i love the independence and the art scene. My art scene which is Mixed- Media Artist just creative people in general.

I want to focus on my Nikon point and Shoot photography this month and reading Mixed-Media artist books i bought and boy did i buy a lot of books from Susan Tuttle, Katie Kendrick,Misty Mawn and Kelly Rae Roberts.  I also bought expressive photography and some Francesca Lia Block books 1 on Ebook and 1 book that should be shipped out either Friday or Monday the 13th.

I also need to really study and take math very serious and learn it from the basic all over again until i get really good in Algebra 2 this is my goal so i have a lot of work to get done.

I need to study for a driver's license, get myself prepared for March 5th i start the beginning of my Nursing Career which start Certified nurse Assistant classes which is from March 5th, 2012 to May 31st, 2102 and i want to dedicate my mind to my heavenly father to getting me through this journey and learning everything i don't know at all.